A friend asked me a thought-provoking question earlier this week as we chatted about all the changes our family is about to embark on – moving for the first time in 12 years, a new school path for our kids, beginning construction on our property…no big deal.
“What do you want most out of this summer?”
I had just confessed how everything feels a bit overwhelming and that most days could currently be described as controlled chaos for our bunch. People think we have it all together. We don’t. At all. BTW.
My immediate answers to this question revolved around living a slower pace, less hurry-up-and-get-ready-let’s-go, more taking it easy and enjoying moments together.
As I continued to ponder, a clear thought came to mind.
I want to fall in love with being a mom.
If I’m completely honest, motherhood has never come easy or natural. It’s been a work-in-progress for so long. The days are long. My kids test my limits and patience. They are JUST LIKE ME. Strong-willed. Persistent. Full of energy. Non-stop.
I’ve actually posted on this topic before, but this stirring in my heart feels completely different. It doesn’t come from a place of them driving me crazy, but more of a deep desire to know them and love them like I’ve never loved before.
Every day I’m learning to love the way God made them – with purpose, with intent and perfectly molded to be ours.
“1. Motherhood is hard
2. Motherhood is glorious
3. Motherhood is hard”
― Lisa-Jo Baker,
God, I want more than anything to fall in love with being their mom.
I want to enjoy the moments.
I want to slow down enough to teach them, without being rushed.
I want to have entire days at home with them to just be.
I want to learn their love languages.
I want to listen to ALL the questions.
I want to have time to paint fingernails and play ball and braid hair and build train tracks.
I want this summer to be the summer everything changed for our family.
The summer their mama decided to take a step back from everything that always mattered more – to love them well.
Psalm 127:3-5 The Message (MSG)
3-5 Don’t you see that children are God’s best gift?
the fruit of the womb his generous legacy?
Like a warrior’s fistful of arrows
are the children of a vigorous youth.
Oh, how blessed are you parents,
with your quivers full of children!
Your enemies don’t stand a chance against you;
you’ll sweep them right off your doorstep.
Don’t you see that children are God’s best gift? Oh, what a blessing.
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