Believe it or not – I’m learning to be a calmer person…SOME DAYS.
This is out of the ordinary for me. Me – the one who typically has road rage at the drop of a hat.
God must be working, y’all!!
I find myself in situations where I let other people go first. Or I take the long, winding road instead of the busy freeway.
WHO IS THIS PERSON???
Maybe this is one way God is teaching me to #clearthestage and slow down to be still. Or maybe I’m turning into my mom!!! hahaha
Today I unexpectedly saw a version of the me I no longer want to be. And it wasn’t pretty at all.
As I pulled out of a parking lot, another car was about to pull in. That driver needed me to move my big adventure bus out of the way so she could get into the parking lot.
This lady behind the driver pulling in LAID ON HER HORN AT ME. And she gave me not so nice words and expressions as I drove by.
The nerve. I would never do something like that.
She couldn’t see how the driver in front of her was blocked by my car and that no one would be able to move without me going first. She assumed I pulled out in front of everyone – like I would EVER do that??? Insert pure sarcasm, in case you’re wondering.
And she was so angry, y’all.
I looked at her as I drove by and mouthed the words, “I’m sorry!”
That certainly didn’t help.
All I could think about as I drove away was how she needed to take a chill pill. She couldn’t even see the entire situation.
It was then that God hit me hard – “That’s exactly what you look like when you snap, Starr!”
And boy, do I snap wayyy too often. Just ask those who know me best.
I snap at my kids.
I snap at my coworkers.
I snap at my interns.
I snap at my husband.
I snap at our choir.
I snap at random people who get in my way.
I obviously have a snapping problem.
I’ve been the angry lady. Over and over and over again. Now, I’m ready to change. One snap at a time.
As I drove away with the newest revelation about who I want to be, I quietly said thank you to the angry lady with road rage for giving me blog material. God can use anything, right??!?!?
Tonight I’m thankful God has given me a glimpse of the me I don’t want to be.
If you see me in public driving my big adventure bus, I sure hope the snapping has ceased and you see a happy mama learning to live differently.
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