#thirstythursday / maybe I should stop writing

the daily Starr thirsty thursday

“Maybe I should stop writing.”

Those are the exact words I said to Brian earlier this week.

Writing can be lonely and especially writing in the summer time. People are off playing outside more and not so attached to their phones or computers. Don’t get me wrong – this is a good thing!

I get it. Readers aren’t sitting at home waiting for the next blog post to arrive, they are busy living their lives.

Along those same lines, it’s harder to discipline myself to write early so I can be the one out playing with my own family and enjoying the later nights that summer brings.

I’ve been writing almost everyday day here in this space for almost 3 years (972 posts currently, but who’s counting??).

That’s. A. Lot. Of. Writing. Y’all.

Sometimes I feel there aren’t any words left to say, they’ve all been said before. There are no more makeovers to do (who am I kidding…there will ALWAYS be makeovers left to do in my life, duh!).

Coming to my little keyboard everyday takes energy, effort and lots of caffeine, ha! It’s also extremely satisfying and part of what I feel God has called me to do in this season.

That doesn’t mean I don’t ever want to quit. Because I do. Just being real.

And then God drops something in my lap that lets me know He’s listening to my doubts and that this whole writing thing is not in vain.

I read a book this week called Finding Spiritual Whitespace by Bonnie Gray.

First of all, this book was nothing like I expected. And second of all, you should read it.

This isn’t a book about writing, but a story about how Bonnie came to find true spiritual whitespace in her own life.

Writing is part of her story as a blogger and at one point she said this on page 117 –

“I just won’t write. …Perfect. It’s decided. I’ll quit. It’s not worth it.

What difference would it make if I shut down the blog and said goodbye? In the big picture, it won’t really matter whether I ever write a single word again. I’m not published. I had just one radio interview for an article I wrote once. I think I blabbed on too long. It never aired. Writing was good when it brought me joy. Now it’s too hard. Too painful.”

I’m pretty sure my jaw dropped and my mouth was hanging open for all to see as I read those words. What in the world??? I had JUST SAID THOSE SAME THINGS TO BRIAN 2 DAYS AGO!!!!

Yes, sometimes writing is hard. What would it matter if I gave up??

She goes on to explain more about doing those things in life that just seem too hard –

“Is God calling you to something that feels too hard? Are you struggling to understand how to walk the everyday while holding your dreams in one hand and the reality of your circumstances in the other?

Is there something you desire or fear that is so painful you don’t know if you should hold on tighter or let it go entirely?”

What is that thing that is too hard for you right now? It doesn’t have to be writing. Fill in the blank of what you feel like giving up on because maybe it just won’t matter if you do.

I’m here tonight to link arms with you and beg you not to give up. You can do this.

Bonnie Gray didn’t give up either. She discussed her consideration to stop writing with her therapist and this is what he said –

“You can try to stop writing,” Dr. P offers. “But I don’t think you can. When you write, you are at home with Jesus. You in Jesus, Jesus in you.”

Exactly.

Whatever you do that makes you come alive, that feels too hard and makes you want to give up – that could be the one thing that makes you at home with Jesus.

You can try to stop, but I don’t think you can.

Whatever it is you’re facing tonight, know that the vision is still to come. It will surely take place. A friend reminded me of my favorite verse this week and it was perfect timing. I hope it encourages you on this #thirstythursday as much as it did me.

Habakkuk 2:3 (NLT)

This vision is for a future time. It describes the end, and it will be fulfilled. If it seems slow in coming, wait patiently, for it will surely take place. It will not be delayed.

 

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12 comments

  1. I haven’t commented in a while. Job and Mom. Total exhaustion. But I cant quit. I am called to do both. I needed this in a big way. Starr, the Lord is in every pist you make. I feel it. Its palpable! I know others do too. Out of all the thousands of blogs out there I happened upon yours that day! . It was Divine Intervention! You definitely have a gift. I have never been so close to tears reading this blog than when I read the title! I am just one. But you are a blessing in my life. I completely understand the feeling. I am praying for you always! Please know that! Love you and will follow you wherever you go. LOL. May peace be swift for you. And BTW-the Grove is awesomesauce! Thanks so much for sharing! ❤️ Gina H

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    • Thank you, Gina! I’m so thankful our paths crossed. Your name is written in my prayer journal so many times and I’m continually asking God to guide your steps, friend. Thank you for reading and thank you for your words of encouragement. And yay!!! So glad you love Grove! It is one of my favorite things!!

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  2. Don’t quit! I look forward to your encouragement on a big way. I love how the Lord gives you just the right words at just the right time…. thank you. I needed this in a big way. Don’t quit. Don’t quit. Those words are for me.

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  3. I look forward to your ding every night. My fiancé says there is Start Haigler not just Starr. I have clutter everywhere and I love your ideas. We would miss your posts.

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  4. Starr this past year and a half have been the hardest of my husband’s and my life. Daily thoughts of giving up are present. Our children have devastated us. We are now alone, just two against the world, that seems crazier each day. But each day I do look forward to your post. I marvel at your strength and honesty. God is using you to speak into the lives of others. I understand needing more time with family, but selfishly I am praying you continue to keep posting. You have become a ‘distant’ friend that I will get to finally meet when we get ‘Home’. Praying you do what God is asking you to do.

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  5. Don’t quit! God is using you to touch many. All great things are difficult. If things are not difficult, it may be that they don’t threaten satan!

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