I talked to a long time friend this week – you know the kind. You can go months, even YEARS, without speaking and then instantly pick back up where you left off.
During our conversation, she made this comment, “You sure do seem to have your crap together!”
To which I DIED LAUGHING!
I kindly told her that if she showed up at my front door today and walked in, she would surely know that I DO NOT HAVE MY CRAP TOGETHER!!!
If you’ve ever thought that about my life, think again.
We don’t have it all together in this house. It’s pretty much the opposite. We have full lives (too full some days) and we live broken, imperfect moments.
For example, our front room currently looks like this when walking in the door.
There’s laundry to be put away. Shoes to be taken upstairs, coats to be hung. Floors to be cleaned, a vanity (still in the very large box) to be installed. Lights for other houses to be taken somewhere else but here. And much, much more.
And did I mention my father in law is coming over on Thursday?? I’ve got to get busy. He was supposed to come tomorrow, but, thank you, Jesus, I have one more glorious day to clean!!
Still, I’m thankful for this.
I’m thankful for the mess. I’m thankful for the times when we don’t get it right and we crawl back to the Father for forgiveness and grace.
Certainly, I could do better. Most of us could.
I could be a better housekeeper (for SURE).
I could be a better cook.
We could eat out less and have less takeout for dinner.
I could schedule less on the calendar so that we have more time to slow down.
I could scream less and lose my temper less with my kids when they aggravate the snot out of me.
I could read my Bible more and get on my knees to pray more.
Yes, I could do all these things and more.
But, even if I conquered every single item on my “could do” list – there would always be more. There would always be something else to do and someone else to measure up to be.
Instead, I have to find contentment in the woman God made me to be right here and right now, run wildly with this adventure set out before me each day, and draw closer to Him. The rest will handle itself.
So tonight, instead of stressing about our dirty house and feeling guilty that we walked in the door at 7:40pm and didn’t sit down to eat dinner until after 8:00pm – we spent extra time at the table talking about this Bible verse right here:
Yeah, that was on purpose since 2 little girls decided to bold face lie to their mama within an hour of each other. What in the world?? Do they not know I will know when they tell stories????? Sheeeeshhh.
Like I said. We all need grace. And Jesus.
And sometimes making a fort in the living room is what you need to end the day.
Brock has decided to join a rock band.
I’m gonna go take a bath now. Ohhh my goodness do you hear the rain falling right now outside local friends??? Heavenly.
PS – nothing was really “trashed out” today on the blog. Oh well. I trashed out my kids telling lies and the notion that our family has it “all together!”
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