Someone asked me tonight, “Starr, how do you have so much energy with 3 kids and doing all that you do?”
I flat out don’t.
This morning was one of those days, you may know them well. I was running on sleep fumes, fighting a restless toddler, struggling to make it through morning church service. Just worship service, God. That’s all I need to do – make it through. Jesus help me, please.
And there in the midst of leading our congregation in worship, the weight of my struggle became too much. I couldn’t keep juggling all the balls, they started crashing around me and I seriously wanted to just stop it all.
So I did.
This isn’t necessarily the optimal time to buckle – ya know, while leading a hundred or so people who stand looking at you with blank stares like you’re an alien or something.
In my brokenness – that is where Jesus always meets me.
And He promises to accept me, just as I am.
I’m not a perfect mom.
I’m not a perfect wife.
I’m not the perfect worship leader.
Here’s the thing – God never intended for me to be.
All He wants is for me to bring my struggles, lay them down – and worship Him.
Why does it take me so long to remember that most days? You’d think I have enough experience on this topic to learn.
No, it’s a daily take-up-your-cross-and-follow-me kind of thing.
We got through morning service and Jesus showed up.
Tonight we gathered on the front lawn to simply sit and have fun, celebrating the close of summer. It’s been an annual thing our little faith family likes to do.
Should I mention that this 35 year old mama’s still got game? Oh, yes. I did come down 21 feet of wet muddy slide goodness. And I lived to write about it, ha!!
This was the calm after the fun and I couldn’t help but capture the slides there in the midst of the crosses.
Jesus, this is worship too.
Living. Loving. Apologizing. Accepting. Laughing. Serving. Smiling. Joining. Belonging.
Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. – 2 Cor 12:9 NLT
- Stop. Just stop.
- In the middle of your struggle, Jesus is there.
- He’s simply waiting on you to lay it down, and find freedom that can only be found in Him.
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