#slowitdownSunday / help me fall in love again

Before you read today’s post, don’t think about my perspective from any other way than the honesty I bring in sharing from a deep place of my heart. My only reason for sharing is the nagging feeling like I might not be alone in how I feel.

This topic is something I’ve struggled with in my brain for months now and I’ve wondered if there would ever be a good time to share with you in this little space…

I feel today is the day.

Me: “God, help me fall in love again with being a mom.”

Maybe you’ve never felt totally inadequate and like you’re unqualified for a job.

Nevermind.

You’ve felt like that.

I just KNOW you have.

Maybe it was your first job, or your current job.

Maybe it is a calling or dream that you decided to step out in faith and finally tackle.

It could be anything.

Sometimes we find ourselves in the midst of {insert your own thing here} and we think, “God – someone else should have done this, not me. Maybe You missed the mark. Maybe I missed the mark.”

Motherhood.

That is my thing I inserted in the blank above.

If you knew me in college, I had plans to work in the city, maybe be an airline steward, travel the world. Yeah.

3 kids later – You would think someone with 3 kiddos might be an expert at what it takes to be a mom.

Think again.

It is in this very season of motherhood where most days I’m like….

THEY ARE DRIVING ME CRAZY!!!!

How on earth could these adorable faces drive one crazy???

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I know. Beyond me.

And my family laughs, “bhahahahah!”

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And my husband gives me this look that says, “You want to have MORE???”

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And I think to myself,

“Lord, I just want to be in love with them. But most days I’m exhausted.”

The fevers. The stomach bugs. The never ending laundry. The bronchitis and breathing treatments…oh, the breathing treatments!!!

I have to constantly remind myself that these benefits of motherhood are evidence that God thinks I’m capable.

Cooking, cleaning, laundering, baking, domesticating, mothering – none of these items would you find on my resume.

I mean really. Cooking for family dinners where I’m assigned a side dish means opening the box of Velveeta Shells and Cheese and placing into the Crockpot to make it look homemade!!

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Behind the scenes of the fun you see in our family, there is a mom who doubts she has what it takes most days. A mom that oversleeps, rushes my kids from one thing to the next, eats way too much take out and has dirty showers with mold creeping up the corners.

So, why did you choose me, God?

Our Sunday School study on Exodus this morning had an unlikely bit of encouragement on this #slowitdownSunday for me as a mom.

This verse comes right after God gave Moses the 10 Commandments. In the next few chapters, God expands on certain laws for governing the people. Laws, rules, consequences, fun stuff – right?? After He gives the laws, He explains that He is going to protect them from their enemies.

27 “I will send my terror ahead of you and throw into confusion every nation you encounter. I will make all your enemies turn their backs and run. 28 I will send the hornet ahead of you to drive the Hivites, Canaanites and Hittites out of your way. 29 But I will not drive them out in a single year, because the land would become desolate and the wild animals too numerous for you. 30 Little by little I will drive them out before you, until you have increased enough to take possession of the land. [Exodus 23:27-30]

Did you catch that?

God explains to His chosen nation that He would NOT drive out their enemies in a single year. No.

Why?

Because they couldn’t handle it.

Little by little.

Until they were prepared to take possession of the land.

WOW!

God, why not make me a mother that can handle all of the motherly things I’m supposed to do.

Little by little.

God, I want to be in love with BEING a mom.

Little by little.

There is a reason and a purpose to everything under heaven – including this season of struggle I’m facing.

Whatever it was that you inserted in that blank above?

Yep.

A reason for that too.

Little by little, God is preparing you for what is to come.

Be encouraged, friends. He’s still working on me – and you.

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12 comments

  1. It will get easier and it is worth it. I don’t think many moms think we are good at what we do. Let God handle it and in His time it will make sense.

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  2. You are right sometimes it’s a struggle but God is there to guide us through it. We want to make it instantly happen, it will happen in his time.
    Little by little.

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  3. Having fears and doubts ARE part of being a mom. I STILL have those…just so you know, you are not alone. I once asked my dad why he didn’t tell me that parenting would be the HARDEST thing I’d ever done, and he said you wouldn’t have believed me…it is something one must see for yourself. But think…what if you didn’t have those cute little smiling faces?? Take it ONE DAY AT A TIME!! Enjoy the happy times, smile and hold your anger (LOL) during the trying times, and just pray that you will have what you need for that day. Love you!

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